ya’ll are amazing.

i haven’t really had a whole lot of time to reblog posts, so i mostly have been posting original stuff, and it still gets awesome notes and reblogs, and i am still getting followers<3

i love you alll. seriously. thanks :)

December 26th, 2011 - 12:04 AM

I need you to tell me you don’t love me. Tell me I am nothing to you anymore. That you don’t think about me every minute of every day. That I rarely cross your mind. That you don’t remember how it felt when we kissed. That everything we had will never be there again. That you’re not into me. You need to tell me that you’ve moved on. When you hear my name you don’t think of how in love we were. That you forgot about all of the memories we’ve had, that I hold on to so dear. Because if you don’t tell me this, I’ll never be able to move on. It’s funny how hard I can live in a fantasy. And in this fantasy we’re still together, and you tell me you love me every night. We do everything together. We’re the most incredible couple that’s ever been, because that’s exactly what we were. And somehow it’s been two years and I still want to believe. I still want to fall. I still want to be held in your arms. I still want to kiss you. I still love you. I can’t stop letting myself fall, because I believe that we belong together, that we were made for each other. And that you will be mine, if not today, one day. Again, just like you were before. I don’t know how I’ve let myself fall into this belief that you still love me, but there’s a part of me screaming that there has to be more to us. We were so shorted lived, but we loved so much. I can’t let it go, I can’t get enough. You intoxicated my entire existence. And I can’t let go. I’m still in love with you. After all this time, I’m still in love with you. I refuse to let myself fall for anyone else, or commit to anyone else, because I want to be available when you finally come knocking at my door. I need you to tell me you don’t love me. Or I will never escape from my delusions that you still do.